In The Beginning...

So far, I have read the first four chapters of Revolutionary Road. Now this may not seem like much of a feat, but it actually is due to the extremely depressing tone that I feel every time I pick up the book. Now don't get me wrong, I am very interested in the lives of April and Frank Wheeler. The stories of their perfectly ordinary lives draw me in like a moth to a flame, because I feel like everyone can in some way relate to the characters. Do I not live in the suburbs with a seemingly perfect family? Do I not long for a more dramatic life? In just four chapters I have grown to utterly detest the main character, April Wheeler, because I think that she is an insane woman who will never be satisfied. But then, I realize that the true reason I hate her so much is that she is my biggest fear. I am afraid that I will forever be trapped in an ordinary life with no happiness.
I am at the point of the story when the reader is just beginning to understand the characters and learn how they came to be the way that they are. I can tell that the plot is only going to thicken, and that there is much more to Frank and April than what I already know. I look forward to reading more and discovering even more hatred towards April, which I'm fairly certain will happen.